Catch up well let's go-oh-oh

2008-10-23T21:26:00.001+08:00

Debbbie sent me an e-card t wish me Happy Birthday! She's super sweeet all the way from New York! :D She totalllly made my day! Hahha. (: And Debbbie, if by ANY CHANCE, you're reading this, check your mail! :D I replied your card! (:

And of course, many thanks t those who didn't forget t wish me happpy birthday. Each one of you made this day so special for me. It's very very very heartwarming (:

THE BEST BOYFRIEND EVER. (:
Amanda Ameilia Athena Beitris Beiru Bernice Cas Casey Cat CherylL CherylH Christie Daryl Debbie DeniseO DeniseT Diana Edmund Emery Eunice Farley Felicia Fionna Freddie Gabriel Genevieve Grace Huijin Huiting Huizhen Jacinda Janessa Jeco Jiezhen Jinwei Joanne Joan John Justine Kahhwee Kelly Kevin Kimberley Luke Mabel Makmak Meily Ming Nicky NicoleE NicoleT Nicolette Nina Philbert Priscilla RachelL RachelY Rose Samantha SamP Samuel Sarah Sarina ShawnT ShawnP Sophia Sue Suikim Terrie Tessa Timothy Uwei Vivian Weini Yixuan Yonghao

Those who forgot? Go and fuck yourself... KIDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDING.

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So anyway, i didn't do much on my birthday except sit around home and lazed in front of the couch watching 5 hours of tv. Splendid. (: Went out for dinner with my family t my favourite Japanese place t eat my favourite food in the world, Beef Sukiyaki Hotpot! :D I got a goood share of Hongbaos this year. :D

Mabel Freddie and Luke popped me a surprise at ard 11ish 12 with Mabel carrying my cute little present - a bunny with a ribbon on top. :D Thanks sweeeeeetheart, i love you so much! :D And Jem told me you wanted t go t Clementi t buy that cute small furry bunny he saw for me, i'm so loved! :D And thanks freddie and luke for that awesome cake that made me EVEN fatter. (:

(Pictures of my new bunnny sooon! :D)

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Over t jem's home yesterday, and his sister Mabel bought almost identical gifts for him for his birthday!!!!!! I was going crazy!! Hahahahaha. But it was so funny that Fionna and I were holding hands screaming at each other. HAHAHAHAHHAA.

Went t school today for Math consultation, t study and t gym. Jem's mum gave me a lift and I went t buy more rabbit snacks and timothy hay! (: I'm going t pamper my rabbit now, gooodbye! :D And study of course. (:

2008-10-21T00:08:00.000+08:00

At 13.8 mm thick, this is the camera t have!

AND IT'S ALL MINEE! :D

Yeap, Jem bought me that camera as a birthday present and I can't be more happpppy! :D I have the BBE (Best boyfriend ever). Hahahhaa. My classmates and Samuel popped me a surprise with a cake and balloons while I was having lunch with Jem in the canteeeen. Thank you dearies, you guys were so sweeeet. :D

I'm turning 18 this year, and i'm not too thrilled. I dont quite want t grow up. I want t be 17 or 18 forever, although my brother tells me life only starts at 21. I've grown so much, physically mentally and emotionally, it's scary how time flies. Today marks the 18th year of my birth and i'll set my goals and resolutions, learn t embrace today, just as much as embracing living. (: So there goes, Happy birthday t me.

And t Meily too of course. (: And 23rd birthday t my brother, Ken. (:

Not only today, everyday is my special day. (:

2008-10-20T01:56:00.000+08:00

I really hate this. I hate having t study and I had having no willpower at all. And i hate that i keep procrastinating. I'm going down down down.

And, Happpy birthday Felicia. (: You cute little one. (: Hope you have a fun-filled day. :D You look so cute when you're excited. Hahaha. (:
This year, I weigh 6kg more than last year. Cheeeeeers everyone.

2008-10-18T21:19:00.000+08:00

Ogay ogay. Right now, i'm updating on a once or twice a week basis because.. you know why. So i havent been up to much. It was mumsy's birthday on Tuesday. My brother's and my birthday is this coming Tuesday. Yes, I share the same birthday as my brother. Very cool, I KNOW. Just stop telling me already. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. Okay. Joke.

We had mummy's birthday dinner at Grand Shanghai. I thought the food was okay but the adults were just too engrossed in the live performance which kind of bored the shit out of my sister. But then again, i kind of like the place! It's like old Shanghai kind of thing with all the Chinese singers dressed in their qipaos. I like. Hahahahha. The only regret was that, we could not get a present for mumsy in time. But we're going t pass her the present tmr during dinner. We got her a Prada wallet which my eldest prada generously offered t 2/3 of. very nice.

And, I was trying to find a picture of it online, but i saw this instead. (Cat, it's time t prove your love. (:)

Okay, on Sunday night, i told myself "Tmr, i'm waking up at 7 to go t school for gp mock test, go t the gym, and then go for physics mock paper". But what happened was I slept at ard 4? And decideed not t go for gp paper. At 11, Mabel called me t bug me t go t school. So i dragged my ass up and we headed t school for lunch. I convinced her t skip econs and she accompanied me t the gym. Then, we went home. Because i decided not t go for physics. Too. hahaahahha. What a day.

On wednesday, the same thing happened and i ended up skipping econs mock. I think I have no motivation t study and lack willpower. I feel very scared for myself, seriously. And everyday, jem tells me, "Do you realize that A levels is 2 weeks away? You know?" Sian.com/alevels

Anw, today i woke up with like more than 10 insect bites on my body and a swollen finger. What the fuck. Mabel and I went down t Khatib on our little secret missssion. And then headed t Bishan t look for our boyfriends. hahahaha. so lame. Tuition and then gymmed with Jem. (who is so stressed over A levels it makes me scared.)

Oh yah, I got the earliest birthday wish ever. From MingYiu. Hahhaa. I was on the bus with Mabel when he called and i was thinking... what the helll? And after saying Happy birthday and all, he insisted my birthday was today when i said it wasn't. -.- Nice. And then proceeded t try t persuade me he is a good boy. -.-

And, I have the liberty t wish happy birthday to whoever i want. And i do know him. If that bothers you so much that you had t call my friend t ask. Please, just mind your own business and stop being so possessive over someone who isn't even yours. Stop engaging in your own little competition there because I never had any intentions in comparing myself t you. But you on the other hand, kept comparing on every single thing. I never even said anything about you doing all this shit, so just stop being so retarded already.

2008-10-12T21:59:00.000+08:00

Yesterday I tried t shop for my mummy's birthday present but there was nothing perfect for a gift. ): Mabel and I went t surprise Cat at her houseeee. And talked about fats for the longest time. And me going into depression. Oh yah, mabel too. (because she cant put on weight. oh yes, you heard me, lets all slap her many times.)

I realllly can't WAIT t get my new camera and you know what? I THINK I'M NEVER GOING T GET IT because i'm NOT a saver kind of person. And since i've decided t buy it myself, then i guess... it's never really going t happen. But it's okay. I like how my blog is boring now because i took out my tagboard. So everyone who comes her for the drama can seriously just fuck out of my life. Yay.

Mabel and I watched the cutest show ever on tv yesterday. We were laughing non-stop because the female lead was ADORABLE. heehee. I like the bunny hop a lot. I only fell asleep at 8ish but woke up at 10. Hahha. Met cat at Forum Macdonalds t study and then after that i went shopping myself while waiting for Mabel t end tuition. And along the way, i saw too many super short dresses and the "Mabel would pull this off so well" thought flashed across my mind at least 4 times. I saw this totally cutesy one. ^^

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It was service on Thursday (last day of school). And amongst all that, I was just thinking how else could i have spent my 2 years at school. The best thing that happened in my 2 years in JC was probably the boyfriend. And the worst thing that happened? It still makes me upset thinking about it. But it's okay. I'll deal fine and take things like a big girl. I shall not cry but i shall face up t my consequences and instead, try t ammend things.

I learnt a lot from college. People say how Ac is a very political school. And although sometimes, i wouldn't agree more, i feel like you do have the power t take things under your own hands. You choose how you want t live and actually, it's true that NO ONE can force you t do anything you dont wish t. So, blame no one but yourself if you are a victim of such "political" issues or whatever nonsense you call it. For me, it's very simple, I choose to be happy. I do anything that makes me happy because I dont feel like I need t care how others see me or I dont need for people t loveeeeeeeeeeee and adore me because if i want someone t like me, that would be for who i REALLY am.

And pardon me, this isn't directed t anyone in particular. TRUST ME. (:
Having a personality completely at odds with your online persona is rather disgusting.

2008-10-06T03:54:00.000+08:00

OKAYOKAY! LETS GO!

Gymmed on Friday after Yixuan lent me shorts! I brought my shirt t gym but i forgot about my shorts! HAHAHAH. What a retard! (: Yesterday went over t Jem's place before gg for tuition trial with Samuel, Yihe, Jem, Huiting, Yixuan! Jessica was there too! Tuition lasted so pathetically long - 3.5 hours! I ALMOST DIED. And we were all discussing what t eat at Chomp Chomp after that! :D

Chomp chomp with those who went from Tuition and we girls ate SO MUCH. okay. at least i think it's a lot. Obviously not enough for Yixuan. -.- Cabbed home with Yx at ard 12. Oh my god, when we stepped into the cab i called yixuan huiting. And jem told me how he called huiting yixuan on the cab more than 10 times. when he texted me, he said "i just sent yixuan home." and i was like "WHAT? BUT YIXUAN'S WITH ME!!" hahahahaha. Retard.

Anw, look whats up on facebook. -.-

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2008-10-03T00:33:00.000+08:00

Okay, so this week, i only attended school on Tuesday. Which was not that bad after all! I studied in the library with Titi, John and Calvin. Anw, Gerri, Natalia, and Lih Yuan came t go online shoppping.. wth. But ANYWAY, lihyuan nat and i totally have the same interest or disinterest, in this case. HAHA!

I stayed back on Tuesday with Samuel, Tessa, Jiayi and Rachel t study at LT3 before getting chased out by some guy. We all moved t the void deck which was so damn hot. zzzz. Had our freeee dinner. (Ac parents volunteer group serve free dinner at 6 t everyone who stays back in school t study. mhmm! And dinner's always a SPREAD. like pasta with a meat and a vegetable, a side dish (ikea hot dog bun etc) plus dessert (muffin or chocolate biscuit)! ) YAH. YIXUAN PACKS DINNER HOME FOR HER WHOLE FAMILY. gah gah gah.

Studied till 7 and i went t gym for near an hour. Studied for a bit with Samanthi while waiting for my mumsie t fetch. zzzz.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MUSLIM FRIENDS (NATASHA!!) !!!

Yesterday, my eldest brother drove all of us for supper at 2ish. Guess what, we drove t Al Ameen at first and
Second brother : Eh? Al Ameen is closed?
Me: YOU MUST BE LOOKING AT THE WRONG STRETCH LAH!
Mabel : OH YAH! HARI RAYA!
And everybody was like... OH YAH. WTF.

So we ate at Eat instead. HAHAHHA. The place is called eat. It's at the rail mall along bukit Panjang. We sat and spoke till 5 before leaving! Droopped me at Jem's place at 5.15 for surprise suppppper or breakfast for my baby. Heehee. Slept at like 6 am and woke up at 3pm today. NO WONDER I'M STILL SO WIDE AWAKE! hahah.

Today, i went over t Jem's at 4. He bought me so much fooood - apple strudel (my fav!) , japanese foood, chicken chop, chocolate buns etc etc! I should not even BOTHER gymming as long as i'm with Jem because he feeeds me like how i fed my rabbbit! (which died. Probably due t obesity and no exercise.)

Stayed for dinner with my mother-in-law and father-in-law and sisters-in-law. hahaahha. And tucked the sick boy into bed before leaving.

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AS YOU CAN SEEEE, my life has beeen.... boring with the capital B. There're too many movies i want t watch ESP HOUSE BUNNY!! hahaha. But i feel like i should not be watching them. NO PAIN, NO GAIN UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!

1) Pass Cat her birthday present although she's such an ungrateful bitch
2) Do my nails
3) Study
4) Gym
5) Pretend t be happy that nobody's going t remember my birthday because everybody will be too busy studying for the As.

I've been thinking what i should do for my birthday. BUT you know, it's so near t As and I'm just so sian t go do everything. So i was thinking : Should i just hire a party planner so she'd just do everything? So i was like okay, i shall do that. And then the next day come, I'll write in my planner : get a party planner. Then the next day comes, and i'll write the same thing. So now, when i realize it's already 3 October. And... i actually want my party t be on the 11th or 18th if i'm having one, it's kind of too late. So i was just thinking : fuck it. I'm too busy although i'd love t have a party. With A levels up my neck, i'd really very much prefer designing the nicest invitations EVER and fussing over the smallest details of my party for example, colour of cups and the design of napkins, doorgifts, ETC. WAH LAO. So right now, i keep telling myself : It's okay, i can always have many many parties after A levels. But i know it's just t console myself. I really dont feel anybetter. BUT STILL, I CAN ALWAYS HAVE MNAY PARTIES AFTER As! -.-

And t those who ask me what i want for my birthday, and i havent gave you an answer, JUST GIVE ME MONEY. THANKS. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH. Fuck you. Yes, fuck YOU.

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I lead SOME SAD LIFE. ):

Farewell.

2008-09-29T00:34:00.000+08:00

I've beeen bloghopping for the past hour and I've seee SO MANY interesting blogs to bookmark. Right now, i just feel like a very boring person and that sucks REALLLY BAD. A levels really bring out the best in people. I wish i actually have pictures to post up. ):

2008-09-28T00:27:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, i wish that everyone would have only one side to him/herself. You know? I dont how t put it. I feeel like a very stupid naive girl, seriously. I tend t assume there's only one side to a person. But i realize, I'm very wrong.

Dip it low, bring it up slow, roll it ...... BLAH BLAH BLAH. I'm super duper sick. I think because i woke up at 8am today. And myy body is REALLY REALLLLY PROTESTING. I'M GOING T SLEEP NOW WOOHOO.

2008-09-26T02:21:00.000+08:00

Catch up well let's go-oh-oh

So my life has beeen pretty boring. School, Sleeep, Eat etc. I logged into here 2 days back but then, logged out without doing an entry because I JUST HAVE NOTHING T SAY! Life of an A level kid. CAN'T GET ANY BETTER WOOOHOOO! -.-

We got back our grades on Monday, which really isn't any big deal because it did not make my life any more interesting. I got A for Math, C for physics and Chemistry, D for GP and E for econs. And I'm down for econs remedial every Wednesday. I can't wait. Haha. My tutor "celebrates" (quote unquote) when I'm not in school / do not attend Econs classs. What great honour here.

For starters, today i skipped sch but it has been the most productive day EVER and I'm happpy. (: I went over t Jem's with many cute Da Paolo Gastronomia Cupcakes and a big chocolate crossiant. So i stayed for an hour before heading t school where I studied with jiayi felicia and huiting. They all ditched me, but Sam and Tessa joined me and we studied till 10pm. Great job girls! haaha. and boys.

Today, i experienced the heartwarming love from the students of Acjc. Hahah. Okay, i'm exaggerating a lot. But the point is someone whom I dont even KNOW gave me money to buy a drink because i have no coins. I'm so so appreciative. It made me really happy for sometime. You know? The "life is so complete!" feeling!

Oh. and something really stupid happened to me. I was holding 2 cans of green tea, walking t the bin with intentions of disposal. AND THEN, i wanted t drink from one of the cans. I wanted t put the can t my mouth and pour the drink into my mouth. And i did. BUT FOR BOTH CANS I DID THE SAME ACTION and the other can of green tea splashed onto my shirt. What a retard. I cant believe i did that. Although I have no intentions of letting the whole world in to my great embarrassment, Tessa thought it was really funny and she went t tell Sam. So i guess, that's equivalent.

Talking about Sam, he is really damn funny. The way he laughs makes me laugh and roll around. I used to word vibes and he found it SO FUNNY. To put it in exact words, I said "WHAT? ARE YOU SAYING I GIVE OUT STUPID VIBES?" And he just started laughing for a whole 10 minutes. At first i was very perpelxed, but the way he laughs is just too funny. So i started laughing and rolling ard too. for that good 10 minutes, tessa just thought we were crazy. But i had fun. Hahahah.

Okay, i have some intentions about skipping school tmr because I'm just super tired now, and i really dont wanna go through that shit i go through every morning when my maid tries t drag me out of bed, it's damn ass torturous. ): But nevermind, i kind of miss my friends. And there's Chemistry tmr. And oh right, Econs too.

2008-09-21T13:46:00.002+08:00

Dangerous - Ying Yang Twins Ft. Wyclef

I've been hooked onto Disney songs. So coincidentally, Felicia. (: I've been repeating a whole new world, and my brother is not very pleased. Hahahha.

My weekend has been a peaceful one. (: Studied at Jem's place yesterday and I completed one math paper hooray. Watched CSI with Fionna while he slept. AND HOW ABOUT, she fell asleep 5 minutes into the show.... oh god. Went home at 11ish and bought supper for the brother.

Okay, was reading huiting's blog. And there goes:

I'm a Laid Back Doer. Haahahah.
http://www.ipersonic.com/type/LD.html (clickable)
Go do the quiz. it's true, to some extent. HAHAHA

"Abstract thinking and profound philosophising about the meaning of life appeal less to Laid-back Doers. They are pragmatic, realistic and live completely in the here and now. At work too, they prefer it when it’s all go and they can act out their purposeful manner to the full."

"They sometimes come into conflict with strict rules or hierarchies by which they quickly feel constrained and against which they rebel."

Okay, I'm going t fantasize about me having a lot of money now. Farewell.

2008-09-19T22:22:00.000+08:00

I spent yesterday and today trying t figure wordpress out. I even started my blog alr and did one entry. But it's just SO difficult t navigate and i feel SO stressed like i'm wasting every second of my life doing that nonsense when i'm supposed t be studying. so heck, i'll do it next time. Sian.com. Meanwhile, i hope that my picture space will not run out so fast. Grrr.

I skipped school on Thursday, but took a cab down for Joan's 18th birthday surprise. And it was a very touching scene! Haha. Jiayi and I felt so emotional, we almost cried. Haha. But really, her mum is the sweeetest for organizing all this and cooking so much good foood. (: There goes :

(Photo credit: Shawn Poh)

The splendid cake. :D

Of course, Joan was touched to tears! Basically, her mum and maid made 3 trays of shepherd pie, 3 trays of chicken pie and a pot of pasta. It’s the nicest shepherd pie i’ve ever eaten in my life! :D She bought more than 10 tubs of island creamery ice cream! YUM. So of course, Titi and Jeco just had t say I came back for the food. zzz.

Just the day before yesterday, Elvin and I were discussing how we would smash cake on Joan’s face. But then, we both figured that even so, she’ll probably just stand there and smile at us after getting cake smashed on her. And when Elvin tried t do the Joan smile, it’s just the biggest joke ever. Kwah kwah.

Went home after school and Jem came over t study. Rather productive i must say. (: Went for supper at Bukit Panjang with my brothers at 1ish.

And, last but not least, HAPPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY STEF! :D

2008-09-15T20:34:00.001+08:00

THE UBIN TRIP UPDATE

I SPENT 3 HOURS ON THIS BLOG POST because

1) Blogger uploads pictures like a snail

2) Apparently, my blog has reached a "photo storage limit" of 3500 pictures so i had go delete pictures from old posts. ZZZZ. Think i'm changing t wordpress or something. I LOVE the function that allows you t lock individual posts. (:

3) This is one long long entry - 100 photos

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Skipped school today because my timetable only consisted of 1 hour of Chemistry tutorial. (Excluding Chapel) And i end school at 10. So, i trooooooped down t Jem's at 8.30 in the morning t have breakfast - Pandan Cake, mini hotdog buns, softboiled eyes and hot milo. Mmmm. What a perfect way t start the day.

So we were supposed t study but J lent me this new book - Panic and i read it till i fell asleep. Kwah kwah, so much for studying. But i did manage to complete one Math Prelim paper and my GP assignment today. (:

We went down t buy some fooood and also run some errands. And i got too attracted by the great deal of foood available in such a small radius. Got myself chicken wings, tau huay, Chweee kueh, carrot cake, bubble tea home! HHAHAHAHHA. Jem was HORRIFIED at the amount of food i bought. Oh yah, he bought one packet of noodles. -.- Sian.

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31 August - DAY BEFORE UBIN TRIP

Went over t Jem's in the morning. While waiting for him t come home from the gym, i was breathing and entertaining myself with the most boring thing ever - clearing out my inbox. Zzzzz.

After lazing ard for the longest time EVER, Fionna Mabel Jem and I went t Crystal Jade for Dimsummmmmmmmmm. Yummy yum yum. ^^ And us girls being fans of yami yoghurt, just could not give that a miss. (:

Slept for what felt like the longest time ever, and then F J and I went downstairs t buy bubble tea and TOO MANY SNACKS! :D WOOOOOOHOOOOOOO. Coooked 2 packets of Korean noodles t share among the 3 of us because we were trying t keep our stuomach partially empty for dinnnner that Mabel brought home. ^^

Look at Jem's expression. DONT GET FOOOLED. He threw all the food t me t look like a PIG in this picture with SO MUCH food ard me. zzzzz. cheebye.

Our bath orgy. Mm mmm!

Caught "What Happens in Vegas" till 12ish.

Fionna and I got so pumped about Monopoly we were the only idiots setting up the game. After packing my bag for ubin the next day, JEM AND MABEL DIDN'T WANT T PLAY ANYMORE. ): Idiots.

So we went t sleeeeeeep. But i couldn't stop whining and making so so so much noise, we only slept at 2ish. Kwah kwah.

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1 September - THE UBIN TRIP

The stupid alarm rang at 6.30am and i went t shut it and went back t sleep. But subsequently in one minute, i got scolded ): zzzzz. So we quickly got changed etc etc and headed to Tanah Merah MRT.

On the way there, jem COULDN'T STOP TALKING AND TALKING! I was feeling so stoned and quiet in the morning. but there he is, chattering chattering chattering.
So i told him, half laughing, "baby, you know right... hahaaha. the whole morning you havent stop talking you know? hahahha. omg.. "
"Fineeeee."
Silence for like 1 minute.
"EH! YOU KNOW RIGHT....... (blahblahblah)" He starts all over again. Zzz.
If i REFUSE t talk t him, he starts saying very embarassing things very loudly on the train. WAH. Hardcore.

Met up with Samuel and Tessa at Tanah Merah MRT and we took a bus t Changi Village t take a bumboat t Pulau Ubin. Wah so coolio. There were damn alot of stray dogs walking ard, i was very frightened. HAHAHA. And i remember there was once we cycled into someone's residence and there was this fierce dogs that i got so freaked out. and Tessa was like SCREAMING. HAHAHA. Now when i think about i cannot help but laugh.

Of course the first thing we did when we got there was t rent a bike. We cycled ard Pulau Ubin for like about 3 hours and my ass started t hurt like one bitch. oh my god. Cycling ard Pulau Ubin just brings back very terrible OBS memories. Oh my god.

Look at Tessa. Guess why she looked so exceptionally happy? BECAUSE SAMUEL IS CYCLING HER AROUND DOH. Hahahhaha. Idiot.

The Quarry. (:

So finally, all of us agreed t cycle t the resting point where we gobbled up a big packet of Wang wang. Okay, more like I ate half of that, the 3 of them ate half. Had coconut drinks and had that moment of rest which felt too short.

Took a different route. We had t stick on a lot of mosquito patches because there were so many mozzies.

LUNCH FINALLY! :D We settled for a not so shady looking restuarant which overlooked the sea. (: Had deer meat, kangkong and prawns which was not very impressive. But it's okay.

So after our hearty feast, we got back onto our bikes and cycled towards Chek Jawa - the wetlands. (: On the way there, we saw a few wild boars!

We had t travel by fooot for a short distance t reach there, but it was all worth it. (: Take notice of Tessa's expressions. She always looks so excited. Very funny.

The view was very different from the rest of Pulau Ubin. And i LOVE the jetty. It was ABOUT t rain and the wind was so strong, i felt so so refreshed. Yummy.

After visiting the jetty, i made everyone go for the broadwalk or something. it was so fucking long. and half way it just started POURING!

we ran towards the nearest shelter on the broadwalk and it felt like we're in the centre of the sea gah gah gah. okay, i have pretty vivid imagination. But of course, i came prepared, and i whipped out all the snacks in my bags. From seaweed, to Percy piglets. We were like having a mini picnic. It was my favourite part of the whole trip. (:

After the rain stopped, we cycled back t where we came from. It was much more fun this time because the trails were slippery and mudddy with too many mud puddles. Hahahah! By the time i reached the bike rental place, my whole bag and t shirt was filled with mud because the puddles kept splashing up! Hahaha. I felt so dirty but it was quite exhilarating .

Washed up in the ladies before boarding our bumboat back to civilization. (:

Awww (:

The four of us shared a cab back t Bishan. Jem and I went back t wash up. I INSISTED on watching another show so we did. And we called for pizzzzza. But i fell asleeeep after the show started for about 15 minutes. HAHAHAHA. Went home in the night and crashed straight away. (:

2008-09-14T15:46:00.001+08:00

I have yet t buy my camera! Zzzz. my parents are going t HongKong in a few hours time. For the last 4 months, they've been flying so increasingly much that for their time spent in singapore doesn't even add up to 1 month. Zzzzzz. In fact, i do miss my mum a lot.

Jem bought me mooncake from Marriot and my brother's girlfriend bought icecream mooncakes over, we were enjoying a mini mooncake tasting session just now. My mum couldn't help commenting that there will not be a need t buy mooncakes next time. Haha. That was some good family time we shared. First half an hour in the past month i've realized. I miss family dinners. Even when they're in town, we only go for dinners on Sunday because of all our busy schedules. Watching them get into a frantic rush, I cannot help but ask when will they be coming home again. Two weeks till we get t go for a family dinner. (:

I used t really dread being at home and talking t my parents. I'd rather be alone than be with family. But i guess that's why they all say that you wont treasure something till you've lost it. Haha. I'd very much love t sit ard the usual round table at our favourite chinese diner and have a meal together. (:

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I havent really been up t anything except terribly long naps after school and not really brushing up on my studies like i should. I went t the gym on Thursday which was probably the most productive thing i've done since school started. and then stayed back for night study, which i spent most of the time thinking about food. Jem and I stood at the back gate and spent half an hour contemplating if i should climb out t go t dover. hahaha. What jokes.

Results day on Friday. I have nothing t complain over my results. Because i know i did better than i deserved to. Tessa got 4 As and i must say she well-deserved it. I'm proud of you! :D So basically, i passed everything. E for Physics, Gp and Econs. D for Math and Chemistry. What i was pretty annoyed by was that i do that have any outstanding individual subject grade. Whatever, i feel like i really dont have anything t say about how i feel about my results. Haha. I'm facing it with a okay-whatever attitude, just work hard for As. Hahaha. Which i just realize is 1.5 months away. I promise t study everyday. Fuck, that would suck.

Yesterday, went over Jem's place t study. Hahhaa. amongst the math questions, we caught half of constantine, went down t buy otah, bubble tea and a lot of snacks, his mumsie got us dinner. (:

Okay, i'm reading this book by Tess Gerritson - The Mephisto Club. And omg, it's somewhat creeeping up my back when i read about all the murder scenes and the emphasis on Lucifer, Demons and satanic rituals and symbols. So after watching Constantine, Jem and i were just rolling ard and he was being hhis usual idiotic self, trying t scare me and it did freak me out. Next, he started laughing so hysterically, i TOTALLY freaked out and started wailing like one retard. zzzz. Bastard.

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I just told my mumsie about my results, which she was totally cool over. She has very high expectations, and my results have of course been a let-down t her. She sounded disappointed, which has now, become my motivation t get my As in the "most important exam in my life." (Like how all the teachers like t put it.)

2008-09-09T01:09:00.000+08:00

to be with you - mr. big

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you.

(:

2008-09-07T23:35:00.000+08:00

Okay, school starts tmr, and i'm sort of excited. Haha. I dont know why either. (:
After this blogpost, i'm going t pack my table t get into a study mood then sleeeeep! So i'll be refreshed for school tmr. (:

Lets see lets see, on Friday, i took a Bus down t Yixuan's house just t pass her her id. (: THANKS YIXUAN! :D :D You're the best. (: After which, Jem came over and he studied while i cooked (hahaha). And he was being his usual sneaky self, so i didn't really read too much into it. But anw, i had so much t eat. (: We walked over t cold storage and i had a steak, chips from O Briens, drinks, cup noodles etc etc. Hahhaha.

So anywya, TODAY, i was instructed t wake up at 9.30. So i did miraculously wake up t my alarm, and i received a text msg at 9.30 sharp from Jem t go t the Guest room and open the drawer without a handle. So being all groggy, i did, and i found, a small present hidden inside for me! :D

I was super duper shocked because we do not celebrate monthly anniversaries. But i guess thats why it came as a surprise. :D

It's too much we've been through. Too many tests, too many obstacles. I'm proud and glad, that i stand stronger. (: Happy 15th sweeetheart.

OKAYOKAYOKAY, i persuaded my sister t go out with me in the evening. :D And i'm so glad we did! I had so much fun. Hehehehehehe. We went t heeren t check out bags, then paragon. I refused t leave and my sister was so annoyed she dragged me out of the store. Hahahha. Really grabbed my dress and yanked me out. zzzz. Fareast for sinful but rewarding fooood. :D And of course, how can i forget, the Best Milk Tea in The World. (: We RUSHED ard fareast t buy things because all shops were closing but we still managed t buy what we wanted to. Took a bus t Holland V and got frolick before heading home. (: I walked home barefoooted again. and my sister was nice enough t hold my heels while i happily finished my yoghurt. mmmmm. I think we should do this more often. (:

Okay, chopchopchop, i'm out! :D

CAT CHANG, GOOD LUCK FOR PRELIMS TMR, JUST DO YOUR THING. (; I love you.

2008-09-05T05:48:00.000+08:00

Lovely

Hello hello hellllo. Zzz. It's like 5.49 am and i still cannot get t sleeep. Terrible terrible. okay, so basically, my whole september holiday was just spent very unproductively. I did not do any work. In fact, i did not read through any notes or whatsoever. I stopped all my tuitions except Econs. And if I'm spend 3/4 of my time eating, sleeping OR watching tv. the other 1/4 i'm probably out with Jem or buying unneccessary things and popping by people's houses with surprises. (;

Lets seeee, i spent my weekend over at Jem's place and went t Pulau Ubin on Monday. (I've yet t update those pictures etc because i havent received them yet! :D But i'm pretty damn excited.) I watched tv and went online for the whole day on tuesday. And wednesday, i went for tuition with huiting stef rachel etc etc. j8-ed with Jem for abit then went home and proceeded with my interesting lifestyle (tv, eat, sleep). Hence, i woke up only at 4.30pm today (technically yesterday, but whatever.) and nyeh nyeh, was ABOUT t stay home t do my 3 Favourite Things AGAIN. But then, decided that THIS CANNOT BE.

So i got dressed and troooped down t town t buy a dark chocolate mousse cake and many macarons from whatever that nice place is called, candele or something. whatever. And Fareast t buy Milk Tea for the loved one. NICE, my ffeeet for REALLY PAINFUL because of my heels and it STARTED BLEEEEDING OMG! I bumped into ariel eden and friend but they did not have any plaster. So i took off my heels and walked t cat's house from there. Zzzz. But i really have no qualms about walking barefooted. IT'S REALLY THE BEST THING AFTER THE TORTURE MY FEET WENT THROUGH. NYEHEHE.

So Cat was REALLY SURPRISED, which was a very good thing. We managed t catch up and i had a mini house warming. (: I think it's super cool living so near town (not likeher old house wasn;t near enough), but on the whole, i totally prefer the new house. :D Cat, your house = my house. (:

Then after which, headed down t Jem's house t surprise him. But he was not surprised at all i guess, because this is no longer a surprise considering i pop by with food all the time. -.- So anyway, it was different this time because his whole family just finished dinner, Lucas and his dad were there too. AND seriously, lucas is the cutest thing alive! We put him on a chair and spun the chair round and round. And the way he looked when he couldn't walk straight was SO FUNNY, he was sprawling and rolling all over the flooor. AHAHHAHA. SO FUNNNY! :D Jem and I did some packing/organizing in prep for hardcore studying, and then the 4 of us played daidee together. Gahgahgah. I totally did not regret getting my ass out of the house although, it is very unwise in financial terms.

(Talking about $$, i got 90 bucks from recommending my cousin t tuition. Yay. There'll be less pinch in buying my new camera! :D)

Perfectoooo.

2008-09-01T21:45:00.000+08:00

Zouk / Arena 27th August
Photo Credits : Fairuz, Amanda Ong

Met Jem for movie and dinner on Saturday night.

Had Sun & Moooon hotpot hotpot hotpot! :D And we caught "Forgetting Sarah Marshall" at 11.30. Bubble tea bubble tea! :D The movie was reallly good. I really like it. (:

I'm super tired, i'll update tmr (Sunday and Ubin trip!), after uploading the pictures. (:

2008-08-30T01:22:00.000+08:00

(If your name is Catherine, please scroll down. :D )

Dated : 23 August
So that's the last picture i uploaded from my camera.
You know why? BECAUSE I LOST MY CAMERA! YEs, rejoice.
Guess where... ARENA.... Yeah, you got it right, the last time i lost something it was at arena. I lost my whole bag including my ids AND camera. So when i told ppl i lost my camera, mostly went.. "WHAT? AGAIN!?!?!?"

Like my brother told me, i'm fucked. very.

On monday, Jem came over and we watched "P.s. I love you". zzz. Hahahahaha.

MCQ papers were not as easy as i wanted them t be but whatever. After the paper on Wednesday, Tessa Huiting Jiayi and I went t town t walk walk and then we met up with Joan Yixuan Annabel Kahhwee for lunch at New York New York because it was YIXUAN'S BIRTHDAY! :D Happpy birthday! :D Some of them went t Boat Quay t go clubbing at 4am, and i dropped by Bishan before heading home.

Zouk in the night. Samanthi came t fetch me up from home and we headed down together at 9.30 and got very pissed that phuture was closed t ladies alr because it was full capacity. We met up with Jacinda, Amanda, Rachel, Ariel, Tash, Fairuzzzzz, Eunice, Cas, Rochelle. It was very sian.com at zouk so we went t arena t drink and have the minimum bit of fun we could get from the night. All of us had plentiful of lychee martinis and sex on the beach.

And so, we decided t head back t Zouk after that, and guess what! I dropped my camera along the way. Might be at arena or on the cab. But i was very sad and devastated when i discovered it was missining only when i got t zouk and was high 5ing with john and elvin. -.- What irony. Then i got very sian and sad i decided t go off without even going in. So nevermind. I went t look for Jem and felt a lot more comforted.

(THANK YOU GIRLS FOR HELPING OUT WITH THE SEARCH OF MY CAM! AHAHHA.)

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY CATHERINE CHANG FEI SHAN!
I know you must be slightly disappointed because i havent met up with you and got you a present yet. But i PROMISE, you wont have t wait TOO long. I feel very bad about this. But i'm still searching for the perfect gift. I sort of have it in mind alr, i just need my MUM (your favourite) t pick it up for me. but she's overseas now. :\ But still, at least, you're finally getting your chanel bag! :D (Now you'll stop asking me t buy it! Wooohooo!) Check your mail, i sent you links! Treat you t dinner very soon. Okay, after your prelims. Since you're such a muggertoad now! ): Which is very saddening because i misss you a lot and there's nobody who wants t go or crazy and retarded with me. Nobody wants t 'waste money' on manicures. ): Quick come back baby! :D

Okay, anw, slut, thanks for being my bestest slut ard since i've known you. You're always listening t me cry and scream and laugh over stupid things that isn't even funny. You're the one who imitates my unglamorous moments esp falls, but still love me all the same. Thanks for always being there at 3 am when i go hysterical, wailing over the phone. Or when i call after clubbing t tell you nonsense when i'm slightly high t tell you i lost my camera. You're the only who loves me and tells me what t do. (: You're the one I'll gladly tell my weight t, because you never ever judge me no matter what i do. Thanks for always lifting my spirits whenever i'm sad, going shopping with me whenever i'm bored etc etc. AC has never been exaclty completed for me since you left although you were the one who made jem and i possible. (: You've done too much for me, without complaints and right now, the more i say, the more i wanna run over and hug you now!

Baby, although you're such a mugger right now, and totally have no time for me or your own shopping and personal leisure space, i still love you and if you have any cravings, and i'm in town, i'll gladly deliver them t your house. (: Fight on for Prelims and A levels because no matter what your grades show or your teachers think, you know i always have the absolute faith in you. (: I loveeeee you. Happy 18th Birthday, i'll let you talk t me in that weird cute cute voice for one day without asking you t shut up. (:

Jem came over yesterday for a bit after gym because i was being so whiney and shit. gahgahgah. Then i went for tuition with huitinggggggggggggggggg at Bishan and bumped into F to the R to the EDDIE at Bishan playing basketball looking totally glamorous. ahem.

Today, i had a lot of me time which right now, isn't too good, because i ended up crying for the past hour. But before night approached, i was having some fun watching Memoirs of a Geisha, Enchanted and many recorded shows. Heehee.

OKAYOKAYOKAY, I KNOW I'M VERY BORING!

But i'm going out for a movie tmr (woohoo!). YAH, SO WHAT IF I THINK THAT IS INTERESTING. cannot is it?! And i have one secret agenda planned out in the morning. heh heh!

And i have an exciting weekend planned ahead, because we'll be doing so many things together and etc etc. :D

And on Monday, Sam Tessa Jem and I are catching a 7am bumboat t Pulau Ubin ^^ Wah, HAPPENING OR NOT. okay. kidding. Relax please. I dont think i very 'happening'. AHAAHAHAHA.

2008-08-25T01:33:00.000+08:00

I sent a long (rather) text t someone who means a lot t me, and i feel so much better right now. She really means too much, sometimes it's impossible t really 'get over it' although sometimes i'd like t make myself thing i'm not affected that we've drifted. It must really be my own doing, but i know there's no use crying over spilled milk, or moping about whatever that's used t be. (You thought me that - t get over things and live on.) Haha, i finally know how things cannot be forced, but i'll take things slow right now. Now, I guess I'll just pray for the best. And you know what, you'll always be my best friend. (:

OKAY, so my sunday was really a reflective sunday. Today, i just had the strongest surge of emotions. Mostly about the 2 most important women in my life - my mum and my best friend.

My mum is really the most amazing woman ever. There's so much I want t say t her, but i just dont know how t. I want t tell her how great i think she is - for tolerating with me, for always giving in t my needs, for understanding my moodswings, for having t be be overseas more than half the time and yet, remembering every small detail in my life, for being such a perfect mother t me and my 3 siblings, and the perfect assistant and life partner t my father.

And my best friend is, worth more than gold. (:

2008-08-23T11:53:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, I woke up and watched everything available on tv - Chinese drama, rythmic gym, volleyball, American's Next top Model, Soccer etc etc. -.-

Went over t Jem's place for abit and when we were about t leave, it began pouring and so, jem decided t bring a big ass umbrella and TRIED t trick me into holding it. NYEHNYEH. So, after using the umbrella, we left it at the bus stop. hahahaha.

Used a bus t J8 t meet Sam and we went t town t have Carls' Junior for Breakfast. I think i took an hour t finish the burger. Sam began COMPLAINING that i'm eating too slowly.

Went over t Galleria t shop for Cologne and Shades. Lucky Plaza (hahaha.) Paragon. Spent forever in Muji, wanting t buy like everything. So we're going back again when we're free t buy everything. Gahgahgah. V fun. Went into sports shop, furniture shops etc etc. We're the weirdest shoppers ever!

Sam left, Jem and I was in the movie mood so we went t Lido t check timings but there were no nice timings. So we went sshoppping. more more shopping. window shopping. HAHAH. We walked till our legs ached before going home.

GUESS WHO I MET AT THE BUS STOP! :DI really have the most terrible photo taking skills! The first 3 blur pictures are taken by me and the last, by Cherlynn.

So I had my chemistry and econs paper on friday. I think i could have done a whole lot better for Chemistry if i had enough time, because i felt it was within my capability t answer all questions just that I write like one snail. But it was alright. (: Econs was just normal (read: fail) Between Chemistry and Econs, Mabel and I went t John's place during the 4 hour break. I fell asleeep in the study room while M and J went t get hooked onto Youtube and whatever interesting things there is in J's room. zzzz. So i didn't manage t study any econs. Gahgahgah, and john drove back t school and i proceeded to take my moment-in-history economics prelims. (Marhaini smiled at me during my paper, which made me MORE STRESSED and MORE FRIGHTENED. This is how scared I am of my econs tutor.)

Mabel and I got STUCK in the rain while trying t hail a cab, and when i got home, i crashed from 6pm to 10am this morning. Please applaud for my (almost-record-breaking) 16 hours sleeep. I WELL-DESERVED IT. I didn't sleep on WEDNESDAY AND THURSDAY night. I think i work best under pressure. on normal days, i just dont feel like there's a need t study. and that's really bad.

So after friday's paper, i felt like prelim's are officially over! Although there's still Chemistry and Physics MCQ papers left. I'm just going t look through some notes the night before (: I'm really quite relaxed nowwww! :D

PEACE OUT HOMIES!

2008-08-21T20:15:00.000+08:00

ibrOn Tuesday, I had my math paper which was relatively easy, but i couldn't finish a few questions. WENT HOME AND SLEPT FOR 7 HOURS. HAHAHHA. Woke up and went t Holland V t meet Yixuan Huiting and Bernice at 8! I was supposed t join them at school since afternoon but i obviously overslept. So i went t visit them at Holland V before going down t Thomson t meeet Jem for the way we call it, super supper. :D

Yeap, We had too many pratas and milo dinosaur at the prata place at Upper thomson road.

AND NOOO, I didn't eat so many pratas. Half of them are jem's. He just put everything on my plate for this picture t make me look like a PIGGGGGGGGG. zzzz.

Carrying my bag for me. (:

We went for Apple Strudel..... BUT IT WAS CLOSEDDD!!!! Zzzzz. ): But on the bright side, APPLE STRUDEL SOON! :D Yum, MY FAVOURITE!

SO after failing in our search for apple strudel, we settled down at Liquid Kitchen for A drink before going homeeeeeee. (:

Yesterday i met Huiting for tuition and took a bus home with Shuwen, omg, it was hell of an experience. HAHA. And huiting was such a total sweeeetie. (:
I havent been studying for physics the entre year, failing my tests at 7/50 scores. BUt yesterday I decided t study for it and i did. From 12 midnight t 6ish this morning. Then i slept from 7 t 12 pm then woke up for my paper.

PHYSICS TODAY WAS AMAZINGLY EASY AND it totally made my day. Hahahah.
I'm so happy now! Econs and Chemistry tmr. (: I can't wait can't wait CAN'T WAIT FOR IT T BE OVER!

Pictures from last week which i never had the chance t post up:

He insisted on noodles that I COOKED. So i did, and i burnt my hand cooking instant noodles , which tasted like crap anyway.
Being a rather appreciative man, he took pictures of my hard work. But whenever i look at them now, I just dont feel hungry. ANYMORE.

2008-08-19T00:25:00.001+08:00

The rain is falling on my window plane.
But we're hiding in a safer place.
Under the covers staying safe and warm,
You give me feelings that I adore. (:

Chemistry Paper 3 was so screwed. I was so ahead of time until I had some major tummyache during the paper and had t rush t the toilet. Zzzz, when i came back, i just felt so crappy my brain just switched off. ): So i didn't finish the paper in the end and left too many marks blank. Hahaha. Took a cab home with Mabel straight after, and slept for 5 hours. And of course, I get t wake up t a whole lot of love. (: Felt so much betttttter.

`Ming Yiu says:
what to do

`Ming Yiu says:
is not my fault that i am good looking

`Ming Yiu says:
must scold my father when hes back

Pam - tick tock goes the clock tickle tockle tickle tock. says:
HAHAHA WTF.

Pam - tick tock goes the clock tickle tockle tickle tock. says:
you're really quite sef-absorbed you idiot.

`Ming Yiu says:
please

Pam - tick tock goes the clock tickle tockle tickle tock. says:
you think you so hot is it?

`Ming Yiu says:
i really have to talk to my father

Pam - tick tock goes the clock tickle tockle tickle tock. says:
WHY? ask for money. confirm

`Ming Yiu says:
i dont think i am hot, but THEY keep telling how attractive i am

Pam - tick tock goes the clock tickle tockle tickle tock. says:
WHO'S THEY?

`Ming Yiu says:
why my father give birth to such a charming son

`Ming Yiu says:
charming and talented*

Pam - tick tock goes the clock tickle tockle tickle tock. says:
nice. suddenly you talk about you being good looking. now got charming and talented also.

`Ming Yiu says:
hey hey

`Ming Yiu says:
i am blaming my father

etc etc etc .....

On Saturday, went for tuition with Rochelle and after that, we headed t KAP and had a STUDY PARTY. ahahhahaha. okay, slowly ppl started coming down t join us - Samantha Huiting Mabel Amanda Nicole John MarcSeah. Gahgahgah. I thought studying was rather productive, and I took short breaks whenever ~ calls, or whenever my tummy wants foood. :D My parents came t fetch at 11.30. They're finally home. (: I have money now. (: HAHA.

Math paper tmr, cant wait. (: honestly.

You barged in, and tried t play your game. What have you done for yourself? What have you achieved? You're more pathetic than you seem t be. And I'm disgusted by how you carry yourself. Don't treat boys like trophies. The fact that you were with 50 boys does not actually impress anyone by the way. Dont go ard lying t your 'friends' that boy 1 2 3 or 4 likes you when you were actively chasing them instead. Nobody's going t be impressed, nobody's going t worship you or think you're a goddess. In fact, I think it's absolutely revolting. Please learn t love and respect yourself. Please love with a true heart, because when you live to love, you'd love t live. (And not live the way you do right now. One word - Trashy.) Absolutely.

2008-08-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

He knows me, by heart. :D

Jem fetched me up from home and we headed t school 5 hours before the paper t have breakfast and do last minute revision. Hahahahah. It was very fun because we ended up drawing. Again. And me falling asleeep, and spending our last few dollars on too much foood.

Math paper was okay although there're ridiculously challenging questions that are really far beyond any normal 18 year old's capabilities. I'll pass, but not a A or B. So that's quite a joke.

I went home and popcap-ed for 2 hours and watched the tv for 3 hours. Like my A levels are over. And it felt great.

But the truth is, i'm in the midst of prelims.

I WOKE UP AT 8.30 TODAY t go t school for consultation. I studied for 9 to 6 in school btw, that is awesome acheivement. Then huiting and i went t Holland V for dinner and studied MORE at BK with Kahhwee Jiayi and Jessica. Tell me what good kids we are.

I'm talking t Jeanette now. Hahahahhaa. I must totally catch up with her ASAP, she's under my homey list. HAHAHAHA. OH, and i'm really excited about going t Pulau Ubin with Tessa Samuel and Jem after As. VERY EXCITING! We;re going t cycle and eat eat eat!

i've got too many pictures that i dont know if i should post.

Oh btw, i'm sick and tired of hearing same old rumours. (eg, the sex one, the rich one, the cheating one) ZZZZ. CHANGE PLEASE! :D I can't wait t hear what you guys can come up with next! (:

2008-08-13T22:21:00.001+08:00

nice. I'm having a headache now. omgggggggggg. ):

2008-08-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

I'm super hooked onto the 9pm channel 8 show! Hahahahhaa. I watched one episode of it yesterday and got so hoooked. Nice. On the 2nd day of my prelims. kwah kwah. And i'm not someone who think i'm too cool for local productions. kekexxxx.

OKAY, so i thought GP was rather easy considering i FINISHED MY AQ! I've never finished it in my entire JC life ahahah. But the compre questions were rather challenging. I did one weird essay questions which none of my friends attempted. Everyone chose 'intelligent' questions like media politics and enviroment. Mine was "Should we always extend kindness to others?" HAHAHA. Great job i'm proud of myself. :D

Econs today was okay i guess. Left out an 8 mark question completely and screwed up the 10 mrks one. hahahah. WOODOOOVOOO. MATH TMR! I'm quite excited. :D Rock told me the paper would be extremely difficult, but i just can't wait for another paper t be over. :D My paper is at 2pm so i can SLEEEEEP TILLL LATE! YUMYUM.

Jem and I went for lunchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh after econs paper before I headed t tuition with Rochelle. Rochelle is such a foool during tuition sessions because she says and makes the most retarded noises. -.- I reached home at 6 and played popcap for abit 1.5 hours. and watch tv for 2.5 hours straight. Now i'm going t shower (HAHAHA) and get a massage before bedtime. MY SHOULDERS ARE ACHING!!! #&*$^@(#$^@#(

I'm actually very scared. But that does not make me want t revise.

I NEEED SOME MOTIVATION MOMOMOMO MOTIVATION! Hahahha.

2008-08-11T20:08:00.000+08:00

WAH, so anyway PRELIM STARTS TMR!!! WOOOOHOOOO! GET EXCITED! GOOOODLUCK FRIENDS! :D

I love peanut soup :D

Okay, so, i haven't been blogging because, my mind becomes blank everytime i come t this page. In the past, I used t have everything t say. I can't wait t write down everything i've done in the day (or night), my thoughts and simple whatnots. Recently, I find myself typing a string of words then rereading it, and deleting it. Although i must admit i find a slight tinge of thrill leading a 'secret' life, i find it very weird that this is my page, yet i can't seem t write anything here anymore.

I HATE it when you see this on my blog, you ask your friend who's good friends with my friend or whatever fucked up connection you have down there, about this this this that that that. What has my friends / love life / sex life / family / whatever the fuck you like t talk about, got t do with anyone? There's too many "I heard .........., then why...... ?" THEN YOU GOT YOUR INFORMATION WRONG. TOO BAD ON WHAT YOU FUCKING HEARD BECAUSE THAT"S YOUR OWN SHIT, NOBODY CARES. My friends dont even bother t tell me what do people say because they know it doesn't make a difference t me. The deal is it's okay t talk, everyone does. But dont bother my friends, they have better things t do or worry about. Okay, i feel that i should not continue because talking about it makes me even more pissed off. This isn't working.

I really hate the prelims. I met Gerri at holland v that day t catch up / study but we ended up talking. hahaha. And Cat, gerri misses you too. :D

have been seeing a lot of huiting, mabel, ~ , econs tutor, chem tutor, a bit of gerri and a bit of Samuel. Coffee bean, United Square, School, Bishan, Holland, King Albert Park. Been spending too much time on popcap.com and too little time on organic chemistry.

I'm most likely not studying for my physics exam although i pray i have the time to. I'm confident of Math. Passing Chemistry. And crossing my fingers for Econs. Oh, there's GP paper tmr. I can't wait for all my papers t come and so after that, i can play for that one week of holidays. Most probably going fishing! :D I'm so excited about that one. I would like t do my nails, shopping, go t the beach etc etc. But Cat can't go do all the girly things with me then because she probably has t study like a mad woman for her prelims. Zzz. ): After that, it will be getting down t hardcore for the As. I find that rather fun. (: O's was quite fun, in a way. (All the overnight studying with Siewling! We REALLY hardcore from 10pm till 8am the next day! :D) Prelim's is just one pain in the ass because the papers are ridiculously difficult. But after all, the main purpose is t make us fail like dogs and make us study like jokes.

I'm out. Preliminary examinations are hereeeeeeeeeee. KWAH KWAH KWAH, GO STUDY EVERYONE! :D

2008-08-08T00:59:00.000+08:00

PIC PIC PIC PICTURES!

From Wednesday, studying (plus a lot of breaks ^^) at United Square! Then went on a bus ride together. Like.. kids. AHAHA.

All of my pictures are very blurry because i have a VERY SHAKY hand. Jem took one picture and it was PERFECTLY CLEAR, so it's not my camera, but my lack of skills ): But of course he deleted the picture because he looked 'bad' in it. zzzz.

Jem took this picture and can't help saying "WAH, SEE MY PICTURE SO ARTISTIC!" -.-

Suppper with Mabel at Al-ameeeeen.

MEEET MY NEW FRIENDS! :D
Hahahah! So so cute! :D Both are gifts and i can't help smiling looking at it, it's super cute ESP the rabbit! Both can clip onto a pen! I was showing off the Mabel today AND SHE WANTED T STEAL MY TOY! GRRR.

Heheehehe. ON THURSDAY, I woke up at 8.30 today t head down t KAP t study. I met Mabel there and we studied for 3 hours before we went t her house and i was about t leave for tuition but memoirs of a geisha was broadcasting on tv, and i couldn't resist. So i was terribly late. Mabel offered t pay for a portion of my cab fare, which i thought was really kind. (:

Cabbed down t tuition and met Huiting there. After that, we met Jem and Samuel at Cofffeee Bean J8 and we tried studying like hardcore muggers. Had dinnnner at left at 10ish. I was too much fun catching up with Huiting, again! :D

IT'S FRIDAY AND MY SCHEDULE IS PACKED T THE BRIM, I'm terribly upset because i dont get t play and relax. BUT IT'S OKAY! MY SATURDAY IS FREEEEE! :D WOOOHOOO.

2008-08-07T02:25:00.000+08:00

What i spent 2 hours of my Wednesday morning doing :

As bimbotic as it may seem, i had so much fun. ^^

I woke up at 9.15 I dont know why i woke up so early. I played 2 hours of Zuma and bejewelled at PopCap.com , and 2 hours on polyvore.com.

Left home t meet Jem at Novena Square. Walked ard t look for shorts before heading t United Square t study! :D Jem had a cheeseburger, a chicken foldover and 2 apple pie. OMG. But anyway, we studied, and although it was not too productive, It was very fun. We took short walks t the supermarket, the pao shop, the magic shop, the bookshop. ^^ I did an econs essay, 2 chapters of organic chemistry, half a vjc math prelim paper, a hell load of fun. (:

(Pictures soon)

WEnt home at 10 and played 1 hour of Zuma, i brought my gaming t a new level, i downloaded it. HAHAHAHA. my sister thinks I"m totally hopeless and pathetic. (But t comfort myself, I tell myself i'm going t wake up at 7 t head down t Kap t study on Thursday morning, which is in 5 hours time.)

I met Mabel for supper, some last minute decision and i caught the last bus at 12am t go down t Al-ameen t have cheese mushroom prata & milo dinosaur. HAHA. but nothing beats having milk tea with pearls. (: Mabel and I had a good talk (: Dropped her off at Kap before going home. SHE WENT T KAP T STUDY. Yes, at 2am. Hardcore.

Right now, I'm going t hit the bed before i start playing weird games online again. (:

2008-08-06T09:26:00.000+08:00

So Monday and Tuesday have been girls' time considering J did not come t school both days. Zzzz. So anyway, I had some girly fun and alot of laughing moments with John Po/Elvin. I dont know what else t say because my life has been boring. I had chicken rice on Monday and 3 Samosas on Tuesday. Tuition with R V and S yesterday and met Joel on the bus, we had some awkwardy but still good chat.

Tessssa being a rabbbbit.

On Saturday, I went t KAP t study with Mabel and Huiting. ^^ I misss Macdonalds. :D Huiting accompanied me till 11pm. because she's a true friend. HAHAHA. And then my mum came t fetch me and we went t watch Money Not Enough at 11.45 at PS. I was dead beat when i got home. Zzzzzzz. My life is so boring. Someone please save me. My prelims are 6 days from now. And i'm feeling party vibes instead. Shall force myself t wake up early and troop down t KAP t study. tmr. (: Think I'm watching dark knight later! :D Yes, i'm very slow i havent caught it yet.

Huiting is really one retard. Mabel's so going t kill you when she sees this.

2008-08-01T00:16:00.000+08:00

I skipped school today because of my cramps. ): I had woke up several times and tried t force myself t puke. ): I met up with Huiting at 3 for econs tuition and we went t Coffee Bean at Junction 8 to studyyyyy. :D It was rather productive for me. But huiting couldn't stop stoning!! She told me some stuff which made me laugh like one retard. HAHAHA. Now when i think of it, I still wanna laugh. (Huiting, we should do this more often. :D) We had dinner at Coffee Bean and we studied till 10. I took a cab home. ;)

Me and Huiting spoke quite a bit while studying. I must say I feel happy t be blessed with friends like her. :D Why? Because my friends, dont ask, they just trust. We dont ask about what they hear, because they trust. And the best part is when they do ask, it's never for gossip.

On wednesday, someone packed me a snack bag. ^^ It made me happy or the whole day. HAHA.

Basically, attendance was 13/25 and John Mabel Jem and I just went t school for PE. All of us skipped Math lecture and GP. So we were basically stoning at the library. Mabel made SO MUCH noise i almost died. OH AND I BROKE THE HIGH SCORE FOR THE GAME IN JOHN'S PHONE IT'S MY CROWNING GLORY. WOOHOOZZZ. And luckily, got reminded t do my Drama writeup or else i would have nothing t my protfolio! Haha.

After school, Tessa Jiayi and I went t Serene t meet Samuel and Yixuan. We had Jap food for lunch and after that, i just felt so restless, i fell asleeep. Then when i woke up, i couldn't stop talking t Samuel and laughing at each other for the longest time. HAHAHA. The whole world was there. Haha, i shall name drop : SamPower, Weiarng, Janine, Jacinda, Garrett, JOHN PO! He went t buy groceries and i took the chance t play the game on his phone. HAHA. it's so damn addictive. Then i got my cramps and I went home. AHAHHA. What an unproductive day. Zzz. Oh. Tessa lost her eraser and got very sad. hahhahahaha.

HAHAHA. Reminds me. I was talking t Jem on the phone and he was telling me about his day at Pre-olympics. And loads of exciting detail. And then i ran out of things t say because my life is so boring. The most exciting thing i said was

ME : Oh. I went t serene t study with Samuel Tessa and Yixuan and you know,
Tessa lost her eraser? and we were searching for it and we search everyone's
bags, the floor, under the books and all, but couldn't find it. Tessa was very
sad.

Jem : Oh realllly? YOu know ian was taking a picture for us and his
cookie dropped.

AHAHAHAHHAHA WHAT THE HELL.

On tuesday, Rochelle was being a joke at tuition. Very entertaining. Hahaha.

Sam V and I went t KAP t have sushi and fries after tuition. V left hurriedly and Sam's dad gave me a lift home after waiting for the longest time ever. But I'm grateful for that - we have a good nice long talk sitting on the steps of KAP. (:

My maid really makes the best tom yam soup. Hahahaha. okay. wo qu chong liang le.

You dont get t me at all. I just think you're one joke. Your actions dont affect me anymore. Because i know you, I know your motives. Too well, girl. They say "You can fool the world, but you cant fool yourself". I already know where I stand, I need reassurance. And i dont need t proclaim. (: If you think hard (enough), you might just figure out what I'm saying.

2008-07-28T23:00:00.000+08:00

Someone packed a lunchbox t school for me today. :D I was ELATED. The lunchbox was wrapped behind purple plastic with the cutest sticker t seal it. (: I was so excited. hahhaha. What a kid. -.-

Today, the class took votes for our prom location. And Ritz Carlton got the most votes. I can't be more excited. :D I actually dont mind Shangri-la either. But would very much prefer Ritz because I think they have nicer rooms with better view and I didn't think the Shangri-la lobby/ballroom was anything spectacular. Hehhee. But of course, company is most important. :D AHHHH!

I started telling Jem how excited I am and what dress I would like t wear. and He had t say "WAH, do A levels first lah! Prelims not even over!" Sian. -.-

CAN'T WAIT FOR ALL THIS T BE OVER! :D

2008-07-26T22:31:00.000+08:00

Today, someone bought me famous amos coookies again. (: and brought me too much food t go along with it. (: I feel myself gaining back the 2 kgs i lost last week. This is terrible.

This morning, i woke up at 9ish and i took an hour nap and then i had lunch and watched the tv for 2 hours. and slept for 5 hours after that. What a wonderful life i lead, as if i do not have the prelims t sit for. I'm screwed beyond screwed. Maybe prelims should be my wake up calll. I'm very screwed for econs. (Like i havent always been) And i just remembered i forgot t go for econs tuition this week. This is terriblebecasue even when i'm typing this, i start panicking but also, i start laughing like this isn't important enough. Zzzz.

On Friday, it rained quite heavily and as i was waiitng for jem t be done with gym, i sat at the wooden benches outside the gym and i took out my books, but i fell asleeeeep. I love the smell of rain. (: It's sweeeeet. :D

And Gerri, I miss you in bangs. ^^

I really need t start taking pictures. (: I miss having pictures of everything. (:

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19 Squigglies for you since you like t talk about them so much. (:

~squiggle ~squiggle!

2008-07-24T23:40:00.000+08:00

Seriously gonna crash after typing this! I didn't take a nap today!!! AHAHAH. okay that sounded quite joke. There're so many things that I've been doing but dont have the liberty t put all of them down here. So i'm feeling a little funny and weird inside. But I think i'm good at this. (:

Lets seeee
On Tuesday, ~ surprise visited me and we studied for a bit but got distracted by too much fun. Mabel came over at 3 am and brought me famous nasi lemak from punggol. (: It was like... sending coal in the snow (HAHAHAHA) because i was famishedddd. We crashed ard 4 after talking shit and Mabel really says the most unexpected suff at the weirdest timings, i was so shocked I LITERALLY SCREAMED.

Yesterday, we played some holding hand game during PE which was really fun but tiring. Everyone was trying t entangle each other it was so funnny. We had various people's face on various people's butt etc etc. ~ studying at my place and sharing 4 packets of different maggi mee was really something nice and peaceful. :D

Today, I dragged my lazy ass t go t school. Gymmed for a bit and got really tired, so i decided t go and study at the tables outside the gym but i fell asleep. 'Detention' till 6 and a long long bus ride on 74 made me very happy. Long bus rides with meaningful people has always been my favourite. (: Today was no exception. (: Tuition at 7.30 and I'm so so tired nowwwww. Zzzz.

It's all almost back t square one and I'm enjoying every moment of this, except them hoes. ;)

* STOP SPYING! (:

2008-07-22T23:14:00.000+08:00

I was a very happy girl today. :D I didn't go t school again (my hand is swollen what a joke.) but I had a surprise visit from ~ and i laughed so much. (: Oh oh oh! Samuel Tessa and Yixuan surprise-visited me last night at ard 8. My friends love me so much. And Huiting! I heard how you wanted t skip your dad's birthday dinner t be with me. I'm touched beyond touched. (: (:

I'm going t school tmr and I can't wait t see my friends. (:

Haha. I'm aware what's happening. So stop telling me, i dont like that.

"she's like one slut down there, seriously."
"HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAH xE99"

2008-07-21T17:43:00.000+08:00

Skipped school today and slept in. I only slept at 5.30 in the morning and woke up at 10ish. Seems my sleep cycle is say 5 hours? I'm thinking of skipping tmr and wednesday too. Totally hate school. Zzzz.

Okay, Pictures as promised!

I left john's party at 12 ish because the class girls and boys left alr, mabel was a bit tipsy and john was puking by the drain. So, i called Sam and decided t join them at Boat Quay - Silver.

Going down was really one joke because I was so underdressed next t all of them - Tash Sam Amanda Fai Rochelle and Twig. All of them (except Nicole) came from dinner at Hyatt t celebrate Tasha's birthday and were dressed rather nicely. I was in shorts. -.- and slippers. hahaha. which was probably a blessing in disguise cause it's my first time clubbing this year and my feet fucking hurt like a bitch.

Anw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TASHA & MANDEEP! :D

Sam and I shared a cab home at 3ish, and god was i tired. I crashed when i reached home. I fell asleeep with my hard lens, make up, clothes on. omg. the next morning i woke up and felt damn dirty. Hahahaha.
Dont judge me. (:

2008-07-20T20:05:00.000+08:00

I guess there must be people thinking why I removed my tagboard.
Well, I know whats on most of your minds right now.
No, I'm not here t give an explanation or whatsoever because I dont owe anyone any explanation.
Because I live for myself and I do things that make myself happy. (:

Right now, when we hit the pause button, I wish everyone would at this moment too.
But i know it doesn't work that way. I know people will talk and gossip.
So i chose t deal with it this way. I will still update, but will skip details t protect myself and the one(s) i care about. Take it, or leave it.
Peaceeee out. (:

2008-07-19T19:56:00.000+08:00

Okay,. i have not been studying I deserve t do badly for my Prelims.
But i'll pray for a miracle.

Yesterday, after school, Felicia Yixuan Bernice Huiting Jiayi and I went t Holland V for lunch for chicken cutlet before returning back t school at 4. (: Chicken Cutlet was so big and filling i could not finish it and it was also the only thing i ate the whole day because it kept me full, even till after clubbing with the girls.

J and I had t serve detention because we skipped math lecture / didn't tap our attendance card etc etc whatever my lecturer wants t say it is about. So in the library, he asked the bio teacher in charge t teach him math, threw paper balls at me, swore like free. But it was so much fun. I dont mind detention everyday. aahahha.

After detention, we chilled at the vd for abit and i took a bus home. :D watched tv and changed and rested till Mabel and Freddie came t fetch me from home t John's place. :D The girls and all were there by the time we reached.

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY JOHN!

We mahjong-ed, guitar hero-ed, drank etc. Mabel got tipsy and she ... err.. panicked because the girls (who were in sch uinform) told her they were going t school. And she started asking Freddie where's her uniform. THen she held my hand and asked why am i not in uniform. And after abit, she broke down outside the house and started crying because she can't skip school anymore. Hahahah. It was quite funnny. She's cuteeeeeeeeeeeeee like that. :D

John and Mabel told me some stuff, which made me really touch. With friends like them who stick up for me all the time (:

We all got bottles for John. Lol. Explains why he konked out before midnight. And when i left at 12.30, he was already puking by the drain.

Took a cab down t Boat Quay t meet Amanda Sam Tash Rochelle Nicole and Fairuz. The boys were there too - t celebrate Mandeep's birthday.

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY MANDEEP & TASH!
(PICTURES TMR!)

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On Thursday, I did something very meaningful. (Although everyone else thinks I'm stupid -.-)
It's too personal t say what I did. BUt i was very happy after that, and it didn't hurt at all. I was so scared! :D :D

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Pictures from long ago! 9th July at School. :D

2008-07-13T22:23:00.001+08:00

My love will get you home. (:

2008-07-11T00:11:00.001+08:00

(Pictures from Dinner with Cat and Joleen at Indulgz! :D)

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY KAHHWEE & BERNICE! ;D

Skipped school today and finally caught up with ~~work!~~ sleeeep. I couldn't go for ice cream with the girls because I had t go t the changi police station t collect my airport pass today and i looked horrid. But it's okay. Tuition was probably the most interesting thing that happened today. Zzzz.

On Tuesday night i fell asleep and didn't log off from Msn. When i came home from school,

Never give out your password or credit card number in an instant message conversation.

jem says:
hello! why are you online?

jem says:
i think you left your computer on. can you please save some electricity? OIL PRICES HAS RISEN and all the commodities will inevitably rise too. i know you're wealthy and all but your actions will largely affect the circular flow of income. especially the lower income group!

SO SO SO, I've so many pictures t upload and i'll go by chronological order. (: I'll upload those from school on Wednesday the next time! :D

TUESDAY

Schoool was really some insane 5 hour shit with NO BREAK since assembly. What a JOKE. But it's nice t end school at 1.10 though. Had lunch and then hit the gym with jem. Ran for like half an hour and cycled for fifteen. Went t change out because i had t rush t town for Dental. It was so painful. URGH.

Rushed back home t get changed and toook a bus t town t meet Cat and Joleeeeen. (: Then we cabbbed down t our favourite Indulgz for dinnner. :D

we just COULDN'T decide on what t eat because we wanted t eat EVERYTHING. ahhaha.

TOTALLY GLAMOROUS. (:

I have no idea why was i looking at my drink so lovingly either. But it was DAMN GOOD, and DAMNNN a lot of calories. But who cares, i enjoyed every single sip of my caramel and butterscotch thickshake. :D

I got t say butterscotch is the best thing on earth.

Going crazy, i dont know why.

Happy girls. :D

Hamster! :D

Joleen and I ordered the spiciest fries on Earth. Lol.

Cat and I could barely finish our foood!

After dinner, i insisted we walk over t Ritz Apple Strudel place and got some Apple Strudel for Jem. Because I was craving for Apple Strudel. AHAHHA. Doesn't make sense i know. You seee, i was craving for it, but I was too full t eat it! And i JUST had t get it, so i bought it for Jem.

I took a bus with Joleen and we nearly got lost in Chinatown! Haha! Delivered Apple Strudel t Jem's at 10 before going home. (:

WEDNESDAY

Took quite a whole lot of pictures at school! Lol. Pe was cancelled and we had a super long break. Elvin and John are just really amusing people. 5 periods of GP was surprisingly tolerable. I stayed awake for the whole time! :D

After school, John gave me a lift t holland v where I bought crystal jade porridge and char siew buns for jem. John and I were discussing cj porridge at school. LOL.

Home t grab some books before surprisingly Jem with foood at his house. :D He left for the gym and i went t study at J8. Bishangirl@hotmail.com

2008-07-08T16:17:00.000+08:00

(Pictures updated - Uwei and Jiehuan's 18th party, Shopping with Jem!)

So so so, somewhere at the start of the year, my brothers and I went shopping and i was kind of in love with this Kate Spade organizer. My brother got it for me when he went t HongKong with his girlfriend. (: I can't wait for As t end . :D

So, i did quite a few things over the weekend, finally. (: After that post, things seem to have magically picken up though i have t scratch certain things off my mind.

On Sunday, I had Essential Brew and Forlick for lunch with my siblings. We're cooooool like that. :D This is how we live. My parents were overseas again.

So after which, my brother sent me t Jem's place where I managed to study for a bit and lazeddd on the sofa with Fionna having the weirdest conversations ever. I remember Mabel coming into Jem's room and the 3 of us getting it on. KIDDDING. NICE JOKE, we were just lying there cuddling. :D I felt really loved and it was so cozyyyyyyyy. Hehehehehe.

Jem got me my favourite snack and wrote a long and sweet letter, which really surprised me quite a bit. (: Had dinnner and left ard 10. Dropped by Uwei's for a bit.

On Saturday, I managed t wake up t Sam's call! (luckily) So i hurriedly got my ass down t changing and meeting her on 156 t go t tuition together. Everything just felt 10 times better when i met her. (: Ate like pigs during tuition and I accompanied her t town t meet Rochelle and Marc Seah.

Jem came over in the afternoon and we had so much fun AND difficulty trying t wrap Uwei's and Jiehuan's presents. LOL. Guys just CANNOT WRAP FOR NUTS.

And at ard 8ish we just started panicking and screaming at each other t get things done. Jem was literally PUSHING ME out of my room so we can get down t going over t Debbie's place. AND WHEN WE FINALLY GOT OUT, WE REALIZED WE FORGOT THE PRESENTS. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. That is some joke.

HAPPPY BIRTHDAY UWEI & JIEHUAN!

It's funny how i've been staying next t Uwei since the last 10 plus years! And i only got t know you last year because he's Jem's homey! Hahahah.

Denise, Jinwei, Andrew, Uwei, Jem and I. :D

Jinwei, Russell, Uwei, Jem

Cute boy number 1.

Denise and I made friends! :D

Debbie baked this cake ALL BY HERSELF. Every single part of it. Please salute her NOW. (:

Birthday boys, Uwei and Jiehuan taking their shots. (:

Making their wishes, mostly compromising of striking 4D and what not.

Blowing out the candleee.

Neighbours! :D

My happpy pill. (:

Debbie and Uwei. (:

What a cute boy i see. :D

Pau cheeeeks. -.-

Jinwei the lucky man........ hahah

I used Debbie's lipstick on him. Hahahah!

Beeer bombbb.

Jinwei Garrett Ivan and Jem having a whole lot of boys' fun. :\

Denise, Ailin, Me and Denise!

That is what epic expression there Garrett.

SMOKE SMOKE SMOKE.

Jem Garrett Uwei and Siangkooon.

Debbie the Poker Girl. :D

Playing Cards with Susanta, her boyfriend, Uwei and 2 friends. (:

On Friday, I went t school and skipped all my classes. Studied in the void deck most of the time, gymmed, had the funniest conversation ever with john and mabel, chemistry tutorial for an hour and off i go! :D

Met Jem at 4ish (lazyboy skipped school) and we went t city hall t go on ANOTHER eating spreee! What retards, really. Considering everyday i complain about the additional weight i put on and try t lose them. and cry over not being able to. And then, i suggest stupid things like eating sprees. -.- zzzzz. But we walked alot, so it kind of makes up for eating i guess. HAHAHA.

ANd then we ard trying t look for the takopachi store which probably closed so long ago. Zzzz. WE shopped ard in Raffles City then Citylink then t Marina Square.

We came across the Hancock advertisement so we rushed to the cinema t check movie timings! Hahaha, what retarded people we are. Caught the show at 6.40. And i must say although it's quite stupid it can be funny.

Okay, gotta rush off t meet Cat and Joleen now! We're finally going t Indulgz again t indulge ourselves in foood. :D

I just really hope people can be more tactful in a way. When you know that someone's already with another person, just stop trying to make something out of nothing. It makes no sense to me. And i really really dont give a shit who the fuckever is reading this. Really. Just screw yourselves. I dont give a flying fuck. I am VERY pissed. Full stop. This is where it is, such nonsense should never happen again.

2008-07-06T04:54:00.000+08:00

Blank.

2008-07-04T01:48:00.000+08:00

I feel funny, in a bad way. I have too too many uncertainties revolving around my head now. Think it's paranoia striking back and it really sucks because I'm the must must over-sensitive person ever. And i hate worrying about something. And i hate it more when i just can't put a finger down t what i really feel, so i havent been able t talk t anyone about it. That really sucks. I hope this gets over really soon. It's already 2 and I'm dying t sleep. Just that I finally snapped out of my dreamland and realized it's a month t Prelims and I need t get going! It really sucks that I have such a lackadaisical attitude towards my A levels and I always prioritize having fun before getting any work done. Because deep inside my heart, i care more than a tinsy weeny bit about my results because I like t prove my worth and feel good. It's true i'm less uptight about the exams, but now, it's really starting t scare me how everyone is so crazily studying. And considering my level of intellegence, i actually need t put in more effort than the rest. I'm feel so annoyed and dissatisfied with myself and sometimes i really wonder what the fuck is wrong with me. I wish i had such motivation like everyone else t study because right now, i just wanna fall asleep looking at books. And it's not like when I'm not studying, i'm having ultimate fun because basically i'm not even doing anything with my life. I'm not spending the time with anyone but myself mostly stoning, watching tv and doing the most unproductive things ever. I havent been engaged with my friends, neither have i been going out jem a lot, neither have i been studying, or having fun. I wonder what I've actually achieved this few weeks. I've tried to make myself feel better about this but it just isn't working and I just feel so damn fucked up. I dont like to feel like i've achieved nothing, when I know that i have the capability t. I dont like under performing and I dont like being too complacent. So, basically i hate who i am right now. But i just dont know what i can do right now because my mind and body and heart just operates in 3 separate ways.

I dont think i actually deserve t sleep right now. So i'm going back t Chemistry. Oh god, this better be over soon, I really miss quite a lot of people and right now i just wish i have one year slot in between yesterday and the A levels. And then I can go party and have fun with everybody before this disaster strikes.

2008-07-03T00:42:00.001+08:00

Finally Frolick-ed before tuition yesterday! (:

JOLEEEEN IS COMING T SCHOOL TMR! :D

Add Cat, i'll be happiestttttttt. (:

2008-07-01T01:14:00.000+08:00

HELLLLLLLLO FRIENDS,

Thesis : I want t skip school because I think it's more productive studying at my own pace.

Anti-Thesis : However, I'm not allowed to. Besides, I have a chemistry test tmr.

Synthesis : I guess i have t resign t fate and go t school, and fall asleep in all my classes. again.

Sian.com/goingtoschool

On a brighter note, JOLEEEN AND SIEWLING ARE BACK FROM TRINITYYYYYYYY :D
I just have to look forward t rapC outings, Indulgz with Cat and Joleeen! , SHOPPING and EATING (woohoo) with Jem, Uwei's!

Teevee time! :D

2008-06-30T00:18:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Cheryl Choooo!!!
(I couldn't text you cause i lost all my contacts!!! I really hope you see this, and text me! :D Treat you t dinner REALLLY SOON. :D Hope Cj's treating you goood!)

2008-06-29T02:51:00.000+08:00

CUTEST :D

Havent been updating due to some internet connection problems. ): It's not solved yet, but i hope it'll be done soon enough. (:

Hahaha. So i've been going into the habit of sleeping for at least four hours once i get home from school which is pretty bad. Because i study into the night and die in school tmr. zzzzz.
I've been falling asleep in class at least twice everyday. Grrrr. Stayed back in the library t do my resume. Cal Jem and I took turns t praise each other in our PQs. Then nicky and Hoeks joined us. hahaha. I seriously have no contributions or whatsoever i'm quite screwed. But it's okay. :D I'll work hard. (: I hope.
When friday finally came, i was so so so damn bloody happy. Haahahha.

ANYWAY, today i practically dragged my lazy ass from bed t head down t tuition at 2ish. 3 hours tuition did not manage t kill Jem and i. (:

Jem popped me a surprise and brought me t Central at Clarke Quay which was totally unexpected. Because we used the train there. i totally got conned into going on different trains.
But i was so absorbed in talking and being with him, i just follow blindly with constant blur "huh? why we alight here?" but then got distracted by something else, and continued talking forgetting the fact, i do not know where i was walking to. What a retard.
But, I had so much fun. :D

We chhecked out the Japanese Supermarket and got intrigued by too many cutesy things. And we saw Caramel corn! Hahaha. (Hello Mabel!) It's really the best thing on earth. (explains the first picture. :D)

Acting like tourists. LOL.

We ate pepper lunch, chippys, man jia le, milk tea with pearls, pizzza ALL AT ONE GO. AHahhaa. We went t chippys straight after coming out from pepper lunch, etc. Which was insane. But very fun, stufffing each other with too much food.

Small boy. :D

Just look at that pau face. ):

If i did not call for a stop, Jem would have dragged me t Burger King t have a burger. ^^ He made me laugh a lot and i was a very happy and contented girl.

Bought 12 mini donuts each for our sisters and headed off very happily at ard 10.

It is such simple pleasures that keep me going going going. (:
Can't wait for Prelims to come. And go. (:

2008-06-25T01:06:00.000+08:00

Oh shit, i forgot t use the 50 bucks La Senza voucher my borhter bought me. ANd it expired yesterday. And the fact that I need t buy more underwear really doesn't make it any better.

2008-06-25T00:20:00.001+08:00

The first day of school was so torturous for me thanks t my cramps. ):
So anw, i went home after math lecture because I was TOO tired t continue functioning. Zzzz. I wanted t sleep but didn't manage to. Went t United Square in the evening t study alone. United Square always works for me. (:

Today i practically dozed off during Econs and for that whole 1 hour, i was trying t write one sentence. but i kept falling asleep by the 2nr od 3rd word. When i woke up, i'll erase it and told myself not t sleep. But it happens all over again. Lisa Li told me how terrible my eye bags looked the moment i stepped into class. I skipped Math tuition today, unintentionally. AHAHHA. This was what happened:

I went home at 1.30, deciding t take a nap till before going for tuition. But i fell asleep all the way till 6.45. Jem was supposed t wake me up at 3 and he said he did and i 'scolded' him but personally, i didn't remember any of that.

So, i was woken up because Uwei called and this was how our conversation went....

Uwei : Hello.

Pam : Heyy..... WHO'S THIS? (in a very disturbed and angry way, thinking WHO TEH FUCK CALLS AT 6.30AM IN THE MORNING.)

Uwei : Uwei! Are you at home?

Pam : OHHH! Hey.. whats up! Yeah i'm home.

Uwei : Can you come t your gate, i've got something t pass t you.

Pam : Do you want me t walk t your gate or are yhou walking t mine?

Uwei : I'm walking t yours.

Pam : oh..... okay........ (in a very sleepy "OMGGG" way)

Uwei : Are you sleeeping?

Pam : Yeahh..... (thinking: duhhhh it's only 6.30 am! HOW COME YOU'RE AWAKE EVEN!)

Uwei : Oh shit. do you want me t come another time?

Pam : No it's okay. ANYWAY I NEED T WAKE UP AND GO TO SCHOOL.

Uwei : Oh. okayy.. (!!!!!)

WTF. then i stood up from my bed very angry, HOW COME my maid never wake me up for school!!!! I was fucking annoyed. And then i was like... "EH? how come im wearing school uniform already?" So anw, unsuspectingly, i walked out of my room thinking.. how come 6.30 so bright already!

But still, I went t my gate where Uwei came t deliver 4 invitations t his birthday party for Jem, Jinwei, his gf and I. He was dressed so nicely i thought he had something on that's why he's up so early or something.

When i walked back into the house, my phone rang again. And i was like shitshit! So i ran ard looking for my phone When it's in my pocket. -.-

Then my grandmother asked if i wanted t eat dinner. I was like... OMGGGG!!! IT'S 6.30PMMMM! SHIT! TUITION!!!!! TUITION IS AT 3PM!!! OH FUCK!!!!

Then i called Jem t tell him and he couldn't stop laughing at how retarded i am. Called Sam next and found out she didn't go for tuition too. phew. But she was totally mocking me too. What a bitch.

And i was like thinking.. how come Uwei didn't find it weird when i said i need t wake up and go to school. Zzzzzzz.

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY BROTHERRRRR!

We went out at 9pm t have dinner, and we had so much foood + 4 kinds of desserts. I think i gained 3 kg from dinner! Hahaha. Reached home at 11ish and I fell asleep on the car. My sister couldn't help commenting how I'm sleeping my life away. she said i probably sleep 2/3 of the day away because i sleep everywhere : In school, on the cab, on the sofa, everywhere!

I've yet to buy my brother's present. Then We have t go shop for Uwei's tooo. ^^ Very exciting i'm applying for my card! No more woessss! ahahaha.

My eldest brother is going away t HongKong with his girlfriend and friends. ): I'm feeling very bitter because I want t go too. I WANT T GO SHOPPING AND I WANT T GO T A BEACH RESORT!!!

2008-06-23T00:21:00.000+08:00

Check :
1) Math Revision Package
2) Econs Essay
3) Econs Essay
4) Gp newspaper articles
5) Chemistry Revision Package

Uncheck :
1) Math Prelim Papers
2) Econs essay
3) Econs DRQ

Hahahha. I did my last piece of work on Friday and I decided that I should be enjoying myself this weekend, like how I havent been doing so for the whole month. But Alias, my cramps are so TIMELY! ): So i did not manage t catch a movie AGAIN today, but instead i went over t watch dvds with jem, his sisters and mum.

School tmr, and honestly thought there's a huge part of me dreading it, I sort of am a TINSY WEENY bit excited. Hahaha. Just that I really need t avoid my GP and Econs tutor. They fucking freak me out. ): My Gp tutor is really one super nice person, but i guess the lack of AQs in my file is really incurring wrath within her. SHIT.

But whatever, i'm going t watch teeveeee now. (: Goodnight, get pumped for schoooooowooohoo!

2008-06-21T20:36:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night, I was doing my econs essay and after finishing it at 4am, i realized my brother was just about t sleep. Went t disturb him for the next half an hour till he gave up trying t sleeep. So we both went online t search for things t buy. My brother had the weirdest idea of shipping in chocolates from Switzerland because he just could not get enough of it ever since he returned home. Zzzz.

Initial plans was t meet Cat at 9.30am t study then head for tuition together. Go home and get changed, rest for a bit then head out t meet the boyfriend for dinner and movie. BUT, the heavenly menstrual cramps are here. Hence, i only slept at 9am this morning, woke up at 1.30 and cabbed down t tuition t meet Cat. After tuition, i took a bus home and then slept for 2 hours with a hot water bag on top of my tummy bunny.

Btw, i havent gone t town for the whole holidays. Excluding the time i went for dinner with Mabel, but that was mere 2 hours. I lead the most fantastic life EVER. I havent been shopping or buying things it's making me feel really really terrible.

The only people I've seen this holiday are Samantha, Rochelle, Vivian, Jem, Cat, Mabel. I bumped into Deborah at Starbucks. And i see Jem more than i see my own parents because they have been away, and are still away. But it's okay, i'm learning t be independent and i topped up my Ez link card yesterday. (but i forgot t use it. -.- I used coins. -.-)

I've been saving quite a bit, and i'm happy i can't wait t put them into my card! :D I'm going t apply for the citibank credit card that my brother has although I'm supposedly not applicable. But whatever, i'm just going t try my luck since Jem applied and got it. :D I'm excited, my rainy days are OVER! ahahhaha. okay wtf.

2008-06-20T06:20:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Ling - Come home sooon! :D

2008-06-18T04:05:00.000+08:00

I'm afraid of the dark
So he turns on the light
How does he know what's in my head
When I cry, when it rains
He doesn't make me explain
Just dries me off and puts me to bed

And that scar on my arm
He guessed where I got it from
What I love and what I just can't stand
And he waits when I'm late
Doesn't try to set me straight
He takes me just the way I am

But it feels good Cause he knows me by heart
And it feels right to want it to stop
He knows what I'm like
And he knows what I'm not
He knows everything about me
He knows me... by heart

I havent been updating because, afterall, there isn't anything t update. Thanks t my mundane life, due to A levels.

But there're some things that happened which i still miraculously remember.

1) The tank at Jem's house was leaking and we only found out while leaving the house. The water level was so low that the fishes were going t die. So we did some rescue work and I felt so good and happy for the fishes after that.

2) Went for tuition with Cat. And FINALLY got t talk! Feels so good, because Cat is as retarded and amusing as EVER. :D i love her so muchhhhhhh. Talking about it makes me miss her a lot. ^^ And she brought me my new bikini. Eggciting. (:

3) Friday morning at Jem's. His sister, mabel was making tiramisu and we all helped to decorate. Jem had NO CONTRIBUTIONS at all. HAHAHAH. I took a few pictures which i'll post up very very soon i promise. I had so so much fun. ^^

4) My family finally came home on Sunday with loads of gifts for me. ^^ Didn't go out for Father's day dinner because all of them were craving for Chinese homecooked food after touring the western countries for so long. hahahha!

5) Meeting Jem late in the night and he bought loads of Chinese goodies for my grandma. HAHAHA. She coudln't stop singing praises after. -.-

6) Very rare family bonding over Bak Chor Mee at 5am in the morning - everyone was awake! My brothers and i drove out t buy at 4ish. ^^ Talked and laughed over the silliest things. No one slept till 6ish when my parents and brother had t rush t the airport t catch a flight. (:

7) Physio and bubble tea - simple pleasuressssssss on a hot weekday afternoon. :D

8) Studying at Starbucks myself for 4 hours, super duper productive. :D

(PICTURES SOON I PROMISE!)

2008-06-14T18:47:00.001+08:00

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2008-06-12T01:59:00.001+08:00

WHAT MY FRIENDS DO TO COMMEMORATE ME WHILE AT MAMBO:

(I'm very honoured)

What do you do when everybody gets a call at the same time?You take a PamTan photo! ^^
In this photo: Marc Seah (photos), Rochelle Song (photos), Nicole Ee (photos), Pam Tan (photos remove tag)

Added June 6

It's 2:09 am and I'm very very energetic, as usual. I've been sleeping at 8am and waking up at 6pm recently. If not, I'll be sleeping at 6.30 waking up at noon then going over t Jem's house, falling asleep on him (as so he had complained say 6 x 10^23 times).

Talking to Rochelle now.

Rocky says:
gtg !!!!

Pam - says:
you're sleeping alr?

Rocky says:
yez

Pam - says:
Byebyeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Goodnight (;

Rocky says:
going to dream of mambo

Rocky says:
HAHAHAHAH

I predict myself cooking supper eating, watching tv, attempting Chemical Bonding before finally falling asleeep and waking up super late again. But this time, i'm going t set my alarm at 12 t go over t Jem's house t savour the delicious food his mum brought back from overseas, collect a very cutesy shirt his mum bought me, and also indulging in tiramisu Mabel made for me. YUMYUM. Oh, and checking out the new penguin game that Jem downloaded on his iPhone, which he named his penguin 'pam'. But in the end, the penguin died. Got sawed, how tragic.

Things to do this holiday! (very late i know)
1) Cat's new house!
2) Catch up with Gerri
3) Study
4) Party once
5) Zoo

AND, Right now, I just CAN'T WAIT FOR MY FAMILY T GET BACK! I didn't think I'd miss them but then I find myself calling my brother and my parents t talk t them. They went t New York, Germany and Switzerland, I'm very jealous right now esp when i have t be stuck here STUDYING. but I should stop complaining because I made this choice and i must just fucking LIVE WITH IT.

BYE.

2008-06-10T09:43:00.000+08:00

So last Tuesday night my family went t New York and I went over t my Cousin's place t stay for 4 days. :D It was really productive considering we were studying quite a bit into the wee hours. It's so nice t have suikim study with me till we both crash. :D In the afternoon while she's at dance practice, or having pw meetings, i'll be at Junstion 8 or Jem's place. (:

And last Saturday, Jem and I celebrated our first year anniversary.

Sam was over at his place studying when I got there. And i was lazing ard, jem had t drag me out of bed to get ready t go for dinner. Reservations at various places at 7.30 but at 8, we were still at home, so all plans were cancelled. :\ I felt prettty bad, but we just went down t Timbre together. Mmhmm. Went back to his place and we watched a movie.

The next morning, that silly boy woke up early t make me breakfast. (I woke up at 1. AHAH) He told me "you know they say the aroma from coffee will wake someone up? I went t make coffee and put next t you. But i wait for 10 minutes, YOU STILL HAVENT WAKE UP." AHAHAHAHAA.

The day before, I went home from my Aunt's house t grab some stuff. Mabel came over for awhile before we went t town for dinner. I was craving for Thai Express so badly. :D So we went t eat at Paragon and i ordered so much! Ahaha. Mabel accompanied me t CK underwear, and I bought boxers for jem. ^^ Bumped into Christie! (:

After, Mabel and I went t meet up with Susanta. Just sat for a bit and i left for Ps t buy things. I went t made with love and saw so so many of Lucas and his daddy's photos on the wall! SUPER CUTE AND SWEEET! :D :D I want t keep Lucas in my pocket! ^^

I remember how Jem and I planned A LONG TIME AGO, since last year t go t the zoo together. Heehee, but we never got down t doing it because we couldn't find the time and energy, sometimes. Keke. We're going t bring Lucas toooo if his mummy allows. Muahahaha. ^^

2008-06-07T13:20:00.000+08:00

HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY. ♡

fated to loveeeee you.

Will always be my favouritest picture. :D 7 June 07
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Something in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's something in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light

Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much

- Chantal Kreviazuk

2008-06-01T12:01:00.001+08:00

I woke up at 2pm and spent my afternoon watching tv and eating peanut butter sandwiches before Jem came over at ard 5. We caught Jumper tgt in the home theatre before cabbing t school for Restless! :D We met up with Nicky Cal Ant and Russ before going in.

Restless was rather good, but it would have been better if we got t see Cal perform (like last year). But Joan was so so awesome! :D She was in almost everydance and had so so many solos. Yumyum. Heeeheeee.

After the performance, Nicky Russ Ant Cal Jem and I went down t Taka for Crystal Jade - Everyone ordered the same thing! Haha!

After which, we took the longest period of time t decide on where t go. Finally after making the painful decision, we took a bus down t Clarke Quay and had t walk like 100 km or something. -.-

Then when we finally reached the place, everyone decided on going t Timbre. So we all took a cab down t Timbre t meet Nicky. We played Truth or Truth and I never over beer(which i dont quite like). But all was fine. (:

Thursday

Woke up early t head down t Junction 8 t study. Jem came after gym and we had lunch tgt at Cafe Cartel. Walked ard while waiting for Sam t come before we headed for tuition together! :D Cat blew me off (bitch. AHAHA) and did not turn up once again.

After tuition, the boys ditched me for gym (!!!) and I went fetch Justine in a cab t head t HollandV tgt t meet Felicia Bernice and Huiting.

Oh! Beiru, Geraldine, Shaoyu and Mishy was at the table behind! :D I've been bumping into so many familiar faces which makes me feel happy and surprised! I bumped into Yonghao on 156 on Wednesday and Curly at the bus stop on Friday! :D

On the way home from tuition with Sam Rochelle and V. Sam's daddy gave V and i a lift homeeeeee.

Dinnnnner.